A
couple of years ago, a friend of mine with whom I had once played in a
bluegrass band (he on banjo, myself on mandolin) invited me to a party at his
house on New Year’s Day and told me to bring my instruments. I hadn’t seen him in several years and had
never been to his house for party of any sort, so I wasn’t sure what to
expect. Gathered around his fireplace
that day were roughly 15 people, every one of them with an acoustic instrument.
There were several guitars of varying varieties (standard wooden 6
strings, dobros, 12-strings, etc), a few banjos and a few mandolins, a couple
of fiddles, and a bass. One guy (a
former member of the Special Consensus, it turns out) appeared to be the
unofficial emcee of the proceedings, calling tunes or selecting other people to
call them, shouting out chord changes, pointing out different people to take
solos, deciding on what key different tunes would be played in, etc. I hadn’t played much mandolin or bluegrass
since leaving the band I had played in with the host, so I was excited to get
my bluegrass on. I eagerly pulled out my
mandolin and sat down. Tunes were
called, chord changes were shouted, soloists were pointed to, and I quickly
found myself fumbling and embarrassed as the pickers around me shot out
lightning fast licks and belted out clear, precise, multipart vocal harmonies
which I could not, in my wildest of mandolin dreams, have possibly kept up
with. More confident on guitar—my first
instrument— I put the mandolin back in its case and traded it for my standard and
trusty Martin 6-string. I hung in
admirably for the rest of the evening, following chords to tunes familiar and unfamiliar
bluegrass with the aid of my capo, taking the occasional modest solo (just play
the damn melody, Mike, no need to play Fast Pick Derby with this crowd!), and
even calling a tune or two (“Willin’” by Lowell George / Little Feat worked
well, thank you!). I left with my feet
several feet off the floor (as it were), having been a part of a Sacred Circle
ritual of musical co-participation dating back decades and, in one form or
another, centuries and millennia.
Over
the next few months, I was graciously invited to return to the Sacred Circle
convened at my old friend’s house for several evenings of pickalong. Mostly, the same experience was repeated, and
joyfully so— intoxicating evenings of musical co-participation with a group of
skilled, passionate, and well-versed musicians.
I left each time with the same feet-not-touching-the-ground musical
buzz. I am not, however, a chopsmith, even
on guitar. I can pick a little bit--
render a melody, even spit out a spiffy sounding few runs and riffs—but am more
of a Keith Richards rhythm and song player than a Jimmy Page or Eddie Van Halen
lead player. Knowledge can, in certain
situations, be a sadly inhibiting or even humiliating force, and as I sat in on
yet more of these Sacred Circles, I found, much to my horror, that I was becoming
inhibited and embarrassed by my relatively modest guitar chops as I jammed
along with accomplished players capable of laying down solos which left me
choking on the dust kicked up by their flurries of rapid fire notes. One evening, I was shocked to find myself
just putting the damn guitar in the case and listening, and then graciously
declined a couple of invitations to come and jam in the weeks that
followed. Please note: no one in these
circles said or did anything unkind or which in any way suggested that I was
unwelcome, disrespected musically, or unequal or incompetent in any way. Indeed, the folks in the Circles were
unfailingly gracious, warm, kind, respectful, and encouraging (several times,
knowing I do a nice job with the tune,
other people called “Willin’”).
The problem was that the bluegrass crowd’s musical skills, and as a
result their values, are tilted heavily towards the virtuosic, and I am, for
sure, no virtuoso. If, like my friend
and his gang, you have been a more disciplined picker than myself and so have
developed playing skills fast and furious enough to run with the Big Guns, then
these are your circles, and they are Sacred celebrations, indeed. For me, however, while these Circles were nice
places to visit, I did not feel at home.
However,
I now had a grasp of what a Sacred Circle is—a group of musicians sharing an
informal musical experience on musical common ground for no other audience than
themselves—and of the heady effect participating in such a circle can have when
it works out well. Aware of the
phenomenon, I had also deliberately cultivated (manipulated!) a few situations
at parties to create a similar effect, placing myself in role of leader, but,
rather than calling bluegrass tunes featuring blazing solo breaks, I had
emphasized rock and roll standards which fostered audience singalongs. Singing along with “The Weight” and “The
Night They Drove Old Dixie Down” by the Band never failed to raise entire
roomfuls of people several feet of the floor, and other tunes, at different
moments with different crowds, had similar effect. Many of these songs were familiar to people
with only a casual relationship with music, and rock and rollers as well as
non-playing folks who knew the songs and could simply singalong hopped on for
the ride. These were sacred circles,
indeed, and I did felt powerfully at home in their warm embrace. Happily, lurking in the shadows of my buddy’s
lightspeed bluegrass jams were a small number of rock and roll players with more
modest chops but extensive catalogs of rock and roll standards and deep album cuts
in their bags, and we had spotted each other through the haze of notes around
his fireplace. One night, my buddy
called only these folks over to his house, and we played long into the night,
rolling through the entire first side of the Stone’s “Beggars Banquet,” Allman
Brothers jams, the Band catalog, Beatles songs, blues standards, and more. Melodies and hook lines were the coin of the
realm, rather than blazing solos, and kids and significant others floated in
and out of the Circle comfortably as familiar bits and pieces of songs
surfaced. The Sacred Circle of rock and
roll is built around songs, rather than musical virtuosity, and this Circle, in
the end, is my home. Come sit and sing or
pick along for awhile, taking a load off Annie (or is it “Fannie?”), scraping
the shit right off your shoes, rambling on, or simply na-na-ing to Jude with
the Band, the Stones, Zeppelin, or the Beatles.
You don’t need to pick particularly well or even have a big record
collection. You just gotta wanna rock
and roll.
Great post. I had a similar experience a million years ago at parties with some of the top tier folks at Old Town School of Folk Music. Fun. Toe tapping. And 100% intimidating! Finding your own circle isn't always easy. "I still haven't found what I'm looking for…"
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